Lately I have been really depressed about situations in my life. I have been overeating. Trying to stuff away my feelings with pizza, soda, candy and whatever is on hand. Gorging myself on food in the middle of the night.
I thought that having a boyfriend would make me happy and for the most part it does. Living in my fat suit, pushing men away. I think that for a long time I was afraid of being with a man. This person knowing all of my secrets and loving me for me. I pushed the thought out of my mind even though this is all I ever wanted.