Monthly Archives: September 2010

9-29-10

It’s 2am and I have to be up in seven hours. I’m happy to be back in school. It’s been a great couple of days. I hate Facebook. Seriously. It is so fucking fake. I’m friends with people on thereĀ from … Continue reading

Posted in Uncategorized | Leave a comment

9-26-10

School starts in the morning and I am so excited. I finally feel as though I am getting back on track. I’m so happy to be back in school! I want a degree so badly and I feel blessed to … Continue reading

Posted in Uncategorized | Leave a comment

9-24-10

Today I lifted up my shirt and I noticed for the first time I’ve lost weight. I actually saw it. It’s one thing for people to tell you, quite another for you to see it for yourself. I do notice … Continue reading

Posted in Uncategorized | Leave a comment

9-22-10

So I have been pretty upset about Barbara these past couple of days. I haven’t been drinking or smoking weed so I’ve been dealing with the raw emotions. I have been crying and writing. The goods news is that I … Continue reading

Posted in American Culture, Body Image, Fat Girl, Self-esteem, Standards of Beauty | Leave a comment

9-20-10

Here I am binging at McDonald’s. I haven’t binged in a long time. It’s not with out cause though. I stopped by the office of my former employer-the best job I ever had until I fucked it up. Over coffee … Continue reading

Posted in American Culture, Body Image, Fat Girl, Self-esteem, Standards of Beauty | Leave a comment

9\18\10

I had a dream about him last nite. In the dream I was trying to show him my writing and he rejected me. I woke up feeling depressed. I lay in bed for several hours and I didn’t want to … Continue reading

Posted in American Culture, Body Image, Fat Girl, Self-esteem, Standards of Beauty | Leave a comment

9\13\10

The other week I was feeling a little desperate for sex and so I browsed Craigs List for men looking for a BBW. Big Beautiful Woman. I saw this hot guy who posted an add along with his phone number … Continue reading

Posted in American Culture, Body Image, Fat Girl, Self-esteem, Standards of Beauty | Leave a comment